Time

Trying to enjoy everyday because this time will not last forever. Once The baby comes time will go by even quicker. I want to enjoy every moment. Counting down The days until I know it's a boy or girl. I will take a healthy baby of any gender. I've made tons of mistakes when it comes to not letting The father have a say in very much. I do regret that. I regret The things I've said in anger. Mostly I regret The things I said and did to make him run The other way. The only thing important though is he be apart of The Childs life. It's all I can ask for at this point. I want him to have a say in everything from here on out. I am so happy to hear The babies heartbeat and know,that things are progressing well. My 20 week scan will ease,my mind even more. I just want a healthy baby and I pray for it daily. Prayer does work and I've had many answered prayers. I can't wait to start getting a regular pay check and start buying all The things I'll need for baby. I've never been happier in my entire life. I do regret not changing my life sooner. For my families sake and The relationship I had might have been saved. I must let go of what I should have done and be grateful that it's changed now. I cannot say im sorry enough to people I love and to The babies father. I did care for him and I should have changed because I cherished what was beginning. I let go of The pain though and know my new journey is just beginning.