2015

I cannot wait for the new year to start. I look forward to the future even more now because of my son. I am eager and curious to see what awaits us. I know that I will continue to work hard towards my associates degree at Sullivan. I have a little over a year left. If I stick with 3 classes this coming summer then I should finish early 2016. I just don't know what my financial aid is going to do and my education depends on it. I hope that I get lucky and get my aid filled out early and can snag some of the grant that is only given out to a select few. I am trying not to worry about it because I know that worrying does no good. Sullivan isn't really good about communicating well about financial aid. I have an advisor who I don't believe knows much about what is going on. I have been told my books for 2015 will not be charged to my scholarship money so I hope that turns out to be correct. Usually when I get my hopes up about something there it turns out to not work out. I worked hard to earn those scholarships and you can only get them for one year so it is important to me to receive them. I guess I will just have to wait and see because with the holidays no one has been in the office so I guess the scholarships are just floating out there somewhere.

I will also work hard to get prepared for the big test for Personal Training. I know I have those people out there who don't believe in me and that is fine. I never have given the impression that my goals were easy because they are not. I don't know if I can get the money together to start my own studio and I don't know if it will be successful but I am willing to try because I want to be my own boss at something that I am passionate about. I still have so much to learn and online education is not easy because basically you are teaching yourself everything. I will have errors and I will learn how to correct them. I just want to help people and at the same time be able to have my son around so I can watch him grow up. My plan is to have my own business and have an area for him to be watched so I can pop in anytime I want and see him and make sure he is okay. I want to spend as much time with him as I can because I know that one day he will no longer need me and will be an independent teenager. He may very well be my only child so I am going to make sure I spoil him with love.

I am reaching my fitness goals and I love it! I just have to keep pushing harder because three years of being bad to my body has left me with more weight to lose rather than just baby weight. My stomach seems to be shrinking at turtle speed and it would be nice if it would catch up with the rest of me.

 I love my son more than words can say and every single day I look forward to what is ahead because I know he will be there. He makes my day when I wake up and see that sweet, innocent smile just waiting for mommy to say hello. I never knew just how much this little guy would capture my heart and I would do absolutely anything for him.