Third trimester

I am so exhausted today I cannot even think. This last trimester is wearing me down quick. I am yet again running out of clothes that fit and it gets depressing looking at my summer clothes from last year. I am more than ready for Landon to get here. Carrying a baby is a lot harder physically than I ever imgined. Simple things become exhausting and I wonder how in the world am I going to make it another 7 weeks? I did not see feeling this bad at all. I still have yet to reach Landons dad to see if he will be there for the birth. It is getting closer and anything could happen. I would just rather know what his intentions are so that I can make arrangements. I never know what he is thinking and sometimes my mind wanders back to him saying he would take the baby from me. Would he really do that? I would die without my baby boy. He is apart of me and I have come to love him more than anything in this life. If I did not have him I do not think I could make it through. I would like to think he would not be that cruel but again afterall I do not really know him at all. To post on his wall he was in a relationship when I first started seeing him made me question if he ever really was a good person or not. He never told me back in august in he was seeing anyone or anytime after that. Is it just a cover to pretend to the world he did not father this child? I am sorry but once the paternity test is done there will be no denying it. He can tell whoeever he wants it is not his but it is and I hope soon he has to man up. I have paid for everything. He has not called much less bought a single diaper or bottle. He will probably get my voicemail today and disregard it like he has every other text, call, or letter. That is ok because I will not wait even a week after Landons born to file for child support. I do not care if you want a child or not. You create one , you take responsiblity for one. Now I just sit back and wait until Landons ready to come into the world. In the meantime just praying I make it until then. He is already turned and I feel less kicks. Now I just feel him pressing hard against my stomach and when I put my hand there he will move away. So cute! He also has the hiccups quite a bit. Meeting my boy will be the best day of my life.